OK.
do your parents know you're doing this?
you'd better put down the computer, and go ask a grown-up for help.
what you're doing is going to get you grounded, and might even get them in some real trouble.
please go get some advice from your mom or dad.
if you're too embarrassed, maybe a teacher at school, or someone you can trust like a fireman or a doctor.
you probably shouldn't post here anymore until you get their permission.
thanks,
R.