Gold and Silver Gal:
You sound angry. Do not be angry. Do not hate. As Yoda says, "it is the path to the Dark Side." Recognize the cycle and where we are in it. I believe you have done a good job of that already. That puts you ahead of about 99% of the rest of the population of the U.S.
Not everybody wins in this game. No sense in cursing the game, just figure out the rules and play. You are doing very well with that, the figuring-out part. In the words of Lawrence Taylor, (Hall of Fame Linebacker for the N.Y. Giants) "Just play, baby. just play." Bull