I’m finished posting here. Considering the extent to which things go and the time and effect they have and the fact that it all has absolutely no impact on the outcome. Seems more scrapping and grief for no good reasons. This last episode was a bit of a wake up call in a strangely positive way. It takes too much head space and a lot of negative impact on a guy. Seems futile and such a waste. Unless something positive comes about I’m done. Take care all!